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Saturday, June 9th, 2007
11:17 pm
My brain walks out on me
I have come to the conclusion that my brain has packed up and left me a few nights ago whilst I was sleeping, leaving me to take my clinical exam with my spinal cord. She comes back occassionally, like the night before clinicals, just to spurn me and leave me hanging on to the hope that she'll be there for me during my exam. Perhaps she didn't like the fact that I was being a druggie. But darling, I'm off the drugs! Come back to me baby! I need you so much!
Monday, May 14th, 2007
10:09 pm
My father worries about me
In an email discussing the options of my getting a UK work visa:
My father ( bless his soul) writes this.
Because it's expensive flying back to spore to get a visa and also time-consuming and labour -intensive getting a cheaper work visa in the UK, he recommends that I fly to Ireland to make my UK visa there.

This rather reminds me of the time he got worried that there wasn't any fire escape route out of my flat, and we then had the most stupid discussion about my safety in case of fire.

I would have had to charge into my window, break the glass and jump 3 storeys down wrapped up in my duvet ( and with 2 open umbrellas acting as a parachute mechanism).

Anyway, here it goes:

Wei Li,

Search google for British High Commission Ireland.
Was thinking maybe better for you to do your Houseman in Singapore. Money appears more in UK but don't forget it is because you are not spending and besides staying in the hospital accomodation is very boring and there is no life there. In Singapore you can get to meet other people and you can go out and accomodation is free. You can even have a car. With normal overtime, your pay can be about $4000 which in terms of spending power etc., is equivalent to the take home 2200 pounds per month. Over here, you can hopefully meet eligible local men.
After houseman, you can go and work in UK and pursue your specialisation. UK is short of medical doctors and you should be able to work there easily.
Regards.

Yeah Right. Little he knows about specialisation in the UK. Once out of here I will never ever be able to get a job back in the UK. There are many reasons why i refuse to go home.

1.) It is NOT better to do houseman in Singapore. Who does he think he is? the Health minister of Singapore?
2.) Money appears more in the UK because it is more. I take home 2000 pounds which is about 6000 singapore dollars.
3.) Take home pay working in Singapore which is about $4000 ( working all but maybe 2 days in a month)is NOT equivalent to 2200 pounds. I find it very disturbing that when I spend money on a meal here in the UK, let's say 6 pounds, will be multiplied by a factor of 4 by my parents " WHAT you spend $24 on a meal?" and then conversely, when converting singapore money into pounds ( especially if I were to return home to work), suddenly the pound has depreciated by a factor of 3.
4.)Get a car? A toy one? When the car that we have, you don't even let me drive?
5.) Eligible local men huh? I spit upon their eligible faces. It is my goal in life to be left on the shelf and thus be a disgrace to you at each and every one of my cousins' future wedding dinners.
6.) No life in hospital accomodation? I beg to differ. Even less life at home- I will be spending the 2 days I'm off each month weeding the garden and polishing and washing that car I supposedly am going to get. (Probably yours)

OF course this wasn't the reply to his email. I'm far to cowardly for that kind of thing, seeing that I still need about 1000 quid from him for subsistence.
I hate exams.........
Wednesday, April 11th, 2007
12:04 pm
Sleep or lack thereof
I'm in Livingston now. Can't complain, the bed is relatively nice and I've got my own sick and all, but problem is that the room is too warm, too stuff or too dusty that I woke myself up at 2am ( after having tried going to sleep at 8pm for extremely bad headache)- sneezing and with a running nose. Right now my nose still runs. I don't think I even have to eat breakfast or lunch or dinner, with the amount of mucus my stomach is getting ( since i just sniff and swallow)

There's something very wrong with my brain with all the insomnia and headaches and functional disorderly things. Damn!

On another note, I did relatively well for the medicine exam, except that ( as it is always) with all these subjective grades we get from our tutors, I always get a B. ( despite a 93% for the exam.) Thank God anyway. I'm now even more convinced of the fact that one doesn't actually need to study that hard for exams 1.) since who knows, I might get hit with insomnia or headache the day of the exam and all effort would therefore go to pot. 2.) I might get As for the exam, but it'll always get pulled down to a B with subjective clinical examinations. 3.) I'll just have to depend on God to pull me through headache, insomnia and those weird and wonderful dreams that completely alters your mood for the day.
Sunday, April 8th, 2007
9:50 pm
Miss Paulose
Just as I was drifting off to sleep, I thought about the good ole' days (at this age, it's hard to stop reminiscing about the good ole days 10 years ago. Better now than next time, when dementia kicks in). I remembered then, that I was a very irritating and evil little git. Yet, it brought to mind sweet rememberance of my naughtiness.

Miss Paulose, our heavily- perfumed english (and form) teacher asked our class of primary 4 girls what money could be used for. The usual suspects raised their hands and shouted out perfectly normal and typical answers- " to buy things!".
I shouted out " You can wipe your butt with it!" This obviously drew a few sniggers from the class. Miss Paulose said very angrily " Wei Li, that's the most disgusting thing I've heard! Shame on you! " - but I bet secretly she was amused at my answer. I bet no one has ever said that in class before. If I were her, I would pretend to be angry but in actual fact, be entertained by my certain sense of crude humour.
Sunday, April 1st, 2007
3:28 pm
I hate studying
It has come- the time when you stare at medical terms that you once used to know. APTT- what the heck is that? I knew that at some point in time 2 weeks ago, but now it seems a whole foreign word associated with something that you're not quite clear about. Its one of those times where you read a word like "table". Tae- Bulle. And then you start wondering why the person who named a table a table couldn't have named it a chair. And what is so chair about a chair. What is the root word of chair? Certainly not hair. And why should a hare share the same pronounciation as hair. Thus I bring to you, the new language of Wally. Once I rid myself of this silly vocation (like when I retire), I shall create a whole new language- Wallyism, which will simplify everything that needs to be simplified ( and possibly will also include 500 different synonyms for faecal material, and countless new non-vulgar swear words. For example, taking the F out, making it "Uck!" which is pretty much a decent guttural vocalisation of having stubbed a toe, or stepped on dog poo (Doo).)

This is also why I'm so going to fail my finals. STUDY! I NEED TO STUDY!!!
Wednesday, March 21st, 2007
9:45 pm
Violin
I want to buy a violin. I think that playing the violin is the sexiest thing ever, not to mention, most neck killing. Gigla or Stentor Conservatoire anyone?
Monday, March 12th, 2007
11:04 am
My genes
My brother has a blood pressure of 107/73 and pulse of 55 bpm. He has the vitals of an olympic athelete, and also a body that never ever gets fat, despite eating 10 KFC pieces at a go! Mine pulse is like 80 bpm at rest. Where are my healthy genes? Aren't we in the same family, which means that I should at least be almost as fit as him? WHY? OH GOD WHY!??!?! SO UNFAIR! (which reminds me, I haven't exercised in over 5 months! gasp!)
Wednesday, February 28th, 2007
9:07 am
Tired
I am an insomniac. And now i am also an alcoholic. I drink a shot of sherry every night before going to sleep. And i can't say that it helps me go to sleep because I end up waking up really early ( i suppose it's the early wakening effect) of alcohol once the side-effects run out. I am immensely bored out of my wits with having to study and come into hospital 6 days a week, waiting in the combined assessment room aimlessly for patients to come in so I can clerk them.
Work has sucked the creativity and joy of living out of me. I cannot wait to start work. No sir-ree. And then in 2 years time, because of the new immigration rules, i will be jobless. I will then have to go home, live with my mother, get nagged every single day, end up going crazy and going to jail or to woodbridge where I will spend the rest of my days in the relative peace of a padded cell, clutching my sealy and sucking on my thumbs. Hooray.
Thursday, February 15th, 2007
9:48 am
Happy Clementine's Day
Happy Clementine's Day!
In lieu of that dreaded V -word, I have officially inaugurated my own Clementine's day each 14th february, during which one must consume an officious amount of citrus fruits ( preferably clementines) (( and preferably sour ones)) - in the celebration of other people's joy and happiness, as supposed to one's loneliness and misery.

So, did you have a happy Clementine's day? I'm glad to say that I did, I had 2 huge naval oranges. ( okay, so they're not clementines)
Saturday, February 10th, 2007
1:43 pm
I have sunk to the lowest of low
Yesiree!
I have to submit my CV for job allocations this friday. In my social activites part, I have put down

I am also a fan of strategy and war games. I played Chinese Chess competitively in school, coming in 2nd in the National Cup in 1999. In my free time, I also play boardgames (Axis & Allies, Risk) and computer games (Starcraft & Warcraft) with friends.

This will surely guarantee my job!
Tuesday, December 5th, 2006
2:15 pm
I DOTAed my life away
Aiyah. so many things irritating me at this one time, and what more better way than to DOTA all your frustrations away. the fact that i haven't packed for India, the fact that I think that I might not have enough money to last me, the fact that I haven't bought my drugs, I haven't started my antimalarials, my period is on the verge of arriving but refuses to come, and I bet when I get on that 6 hour long train ride, and when the toilet floor is full of shit, then it'll come with a vengeance. then by that time, I would have eaten something awful, and be shitting and puking myself, and then there'll be blood, puke and shit coming out of my orifices and ending up on my clothes, and then I won't be able to do my laundry (because they ain't got no laundry there)and I'll end up smelling like crap the 5 weeks i'm there. bugger. Back to DOTA.
Monday, December 4th, 2006
4:40 am
why I hate Singapore
hot
everyone drives huge petrol-guzzling cars
workaholic mindset
everyone anorexia
mother stays here (i have a lot to say, but cannot, just in case, who is also incidentally simultaneously as i write this, bitching non-stop to my sister about me)

shall be glad when i go to india. Thank God.
Saturday, November 18th, 2006
5:50 am
bloody MTAS forms
This year's job application form requires the submission of personal statements of no more than 150 words in response to the following questions

Working Effectively with Others
Describe an example from your own experience (either clinical or non clinical) that has increased your understanding of the importance of team working. What was your role and contribution to the team? (6 points)

The Patient as the central focus of Care
Describe an example from your clinical experience where your behaviour enhanced the experience of the patient as the central focus of care. What did you do and what was the outcome? (6 points)

Dealing effectively with pressure/challenge
Describe an example (not necessarily clinical) of a time when you had to deal with pressure OR overcome a setback/challenge. What did you do and what was the outcome? (6 points)

and

Professionalism
Describe an example of a situation where you had to demonstrate your professionalism and/or integrity. What did you do and what was the outcome? (6 points)

This is the biggest buggery question. because I have no integrity, nor any professionalism. The best example I could come up with, which still makes me look bad, was an example of some petty feud I had with a nurse. Ken Mah suggested that I should say something to the effect of

" I had so many chances to bed nice-looking registrars/ male nurses but because I had integrity and professionalism : never mix pleasure with business, i didn't. "

however, I can think of better examples:

" I once saw Prof ( insert name of hated consultant) and (insert name of other hated consultant, preferably of the same sex)unclothed and engaged in a compromising position. But because I had integrity and was professional, I didn't tell nobody. But because I have to fill up this stupid form, I was forced to reveal this to the entire MTAS board"

or
" When I was doing surgery in Dunfermline, I spotted an FY1 by the name of Chin Chee Yang ( tortilla chips man), doing a per rectum examination with his entire fist. Being the professional I am, I gently took him aside and gently educated him as to the finer points of administrating a PR. He was very much grateful for my advice and as a result of this, we were able to better improve patient care."
Wednesday, November 15th, 2006
1:38 pm
Shawn Part II
Shawn says:
wow

Shawn says:
that was a great one

Shawn says:
feel so good now

weili says:
fantastic

weili says:
hope you flushed and washed your hands

weili says:
anyway

weili says:
don't you havea to work?

Shawn says:
night shift

weili says:
ahhhh

weili says:
i see

weili says:
happy days\

Shawn says:
yes

Shawn says:
3 weeks of nights in 4 mnths

Shawn says:
wah lau

weili says:
aiyah

weili says:
i like nights

weili says:
serene

weili says:
dark

Shawn says:
well, you 'll have no problem then

weili says:
yeah

Shawn says:
what do you wanna do wei li?

weili says:
i wanna be a housewife

Shawn says:
ians housewife?

Shawn says:
snigger

weili says:
shutup

Shawn says:
SNIGGER

Shawn says:
SNIGGER SNIGGER

Shawn says:
im teasing you

weili says:
yeah i know

weili says:
well

weili says:
shawnling

weili says:
at least he's nice to me

weili says:
ha

Shawn says:
zerg

weili says:
yeah

Shawn says:
shawnling... a new breed of zerg

weili says:
yeah,they be even cheaper than non-upgraded zerglings

Shawn says:
ian wei... a protoss

weili says:
only cost .5 minerals

Shawn says:
(the protoss reject, i may add)

weili says:
shutup

Shawn says:
its like the scrappy doo of protoss

weili says:
the shawnling, used as cannon fodder

Shawn says:
but at least serve a purpose

Shawn says:
ian wei, is the protoss darkest skeleton in their closet

weili says:
cannon fodder for the neutral animals crawling about the terrain

Shawn says:
if the other races found out about ian wei,

Shawn says:
the dignity of the protoss would come crashing to a halt

weili says:
shutup

Shawn says:
sorry, not to a halt

Shawn says:
i meant to an end

Shawn says:

weili says:
ha

Shawn says:
joking my dear

weili says:
yes

weili says:
i know

weili says:
duh

Shawn says:
joking joking joking

Shawn says:
dont get mad

weili says:
the protoss do not exist

Shawn says:
but how do you know?

weili says:
i know

weili says:
they aren't called protoss

weili says:
they're called the klingons

weili says:
anyway got to go sleep

weili says:
some people have to work harder than others.

weili says:
byebye
12:54 pm
Shawn
Shawn says:
wei li

Shawn says:
i love you

Shawn says:
hahhahaha

weili says:
hahhahhahaha

weili says:
i know

Shawn says:
whattup homie

Shawn says:
have you seen the PS3 yet?

weili says:
no

weili says:
shutup\

Shawn says:
i heard its out in singapore

weili says:
why would i have seen it

weili says:
ah

weili says:
are u wanting me to get u one?

Shawn says:
just wondering what its like

Shawn says:
no no

weili says:
oh

Shawn says:
dont

weili says:
it's fantastic

Shawn says:
yeah right you ddnt even know abou tit

weili says:
you can lauch saddam's WMD with them

Shawn says:
you could do that with PS2 already

Shawn says:
whats new

weili says:
yes

weili says:
but you need about 4 PS2

Shawn says:
REALLY?

weili says:
you only need one PS3

weili says:
yeaeh

Shawn says:
THATS A BARGAIN

weili says:
yes

weili says:
indee

weili says:
why nt you pay me 100 000 pounds

weili says:
and i'll get one for you

weili says:
!

Shawn says:
i also heard you could use the 5 PS2s as an alternative for

weili says:
i'll even take it on the plane

Shawn says:
ninja gaiden

weili says:
what's that?

Shawn says:
have you seen the star wars rap before?

weili says:
ninja gay den

Shawn says:
so funny

Shawn says:
hahah

weili says:
yes

weili says:
have

Shawn says:
a jedi's gota do what a jedis gotta do

Shawn says:
anyway peace out

Shawn says:
gotta do a 2

weili says:
number 2?

weili says:
NICE

weili says:
remmeber me when you do it
11:35 am
tired
i got nothing to say, except that i've missed lunch the past 2 days because been standing in operating theatre for 6 hours straight, today and yesterday. NO shit man.
In other news I have cable tv now, in my house. after my mum said " You think we so rich men? we been scrimping and saving for your education.", my dad bought a plasma tv and suscribed to SCV. ha
Friday, November 10th, 2006
8:14 am
End of breast
hurray! finished my one week attachment with the breast (and trauma) department. technically I've been in for about 2.5 days, not going in on monday, pontenging wednesday and half day friday. next week I move to head and neck. My breast reg called the H&N reg to arrange the next attachment.

"are they nice?" I asked.
" Oh, nice... but not as nice as me." said the breast reg.

this how the phone conversation went.

" hey i have a female elective student wanting to join your team next week, can anot?"

*pause + smirk*

"Ya, young and pretty la. Foreign trained, like you."

*pause*

" Make sure you take care of her ah!"

*pause*

" No no, you can teach her anything you want for the whole of next week."

* wink wink*


wah, all these pervy gossipy male surgeons.

" I used to be able to slip my wedding ring off my finger very easily, but now harder la, cos put on weight."

" The last I checked, I was married."

" Don't have to stand here ( during endoscopy ), I may be gorgeous, but I'm even more gorgeous from the chair."

" Hey, I heard from the HO that one of the NUS students was trying to chat you up. Is that why you weren't in OT? but nevermind la, I'm sure you've got more interesting things to do" * wink wink*

Also found out surgeons in colorectal unit have reputation for "girlfriends" outside of marriage. (even bringing them to dinner and dance).

wah. can't wait till next week man.

Current Mood: worried
Tuesday, November 7th, 2006
12:04 pm
damn shack!
i want to blog. but things keep cropping up. like needing to book attachment for february when I return to edin.
my mother has been cooking soup ( nutritious) and brewing nutritious tea and cutting damn a lot of nutritious food. My stomach is perpetually bloated and I can't even bend down to pick stuff up anymore. that feeling of bloatedness and the damp sticky sweaty feeling is really pissing me off.
and finally, the shame of not knowing anything ( since i doing surgery in SGH) despite having already done surgery in edinburgh, i probably have slightly more than a tenth of the knowledge a 3rd year NUS medic has. So what're the causes of gastric cancer. er. smoking? drinking? family history?
aiyah stupid SGH people also start their ward round at 7.30 in the morning. what's wrong with them ah?
Sunday, November 5th, 2006
5:48 am
back home
I've put on weight. Thus has been my diet the past 7 days I've been back
- Emperor chicken
- chicken curry
- char kway teow
- or lua
- soya bean milk ( damn a lot)
- Fish soup
- chicken rice
- japanese food thinggummies on the travellator thing
- yam puffs
- chee kuei
- fishball noodles
- calamari
- barcardi coke
- pizza
- ming qiang kuei
- prawn laksa
- durian ( damn a lot)

shit i need to lose weight now to fit back into clothes I brought back from the UK.
My mum has been pampering me a lot these days, although the nagging has started ( why you don't drink water, why don't you sit up straight, look at your pot belly. stop licking your lips. why don't you exercise. why don't you tidy your table.why are you going to india. why can't you go to australia or shanghai( although it's been eons since I've told her why I'm going to india. i've already got the tickets) but it's early days yet.
ah well.
Saturday, October 28th, 2006
12:53 pm
Home Sheeeeet Home
Suck la. Called home today to ask my mum if they wanted me to buy anything home. So my dad emailed me to buy some mcvities for my brother. (I now think my dad is a really nice person.) and my mum said " Don't buy anything. Jian Yang has no time to eat Mcvities."
What the hell is no time to eat Mcvities- because my brother told me himself to get Mcvities for him?? So she continued, saying, " don't bring any clothes back ah!" So I said, "you mean you've bought clothes for me already, I told you to stop buying clothes for me!" "Aiyah, you don't want to wear then don't la. So ungrateful you. People buy clothes for you ...... etc etc etc."
Which I certainly don't understand. I already told her not to buy clothes for me, then she goes and buys some stupid clothes which I will never wear, then she says I'm ungrateful for not wearing them and wasting her money. After which she rudely hung up on me. Some people's logic I will never understand. I am so not looking forward to coming home.
All you working people, it's time to take your wallets out and treat Wei Li to nice yum yum meals.
My mum has already planned a strict lose-weight regiment for me where I will eat nothing but 3 spoonfuls of rice a day and have a staple diet of boiled vegetables. ARGH! ARGH!!! ARGHHHHHHH!!!

Current Mood: anxious
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